When he doesn't return the gesture, her smile drops and she pulls her hands away.
That was the problem, really, wasn't it? If she remembered...she's sure she could never be 'Ichi' again. He would keep his distance, mindful of the fact that he wasn't Nagamasa. And with the knowledge that Nagamasa was dead...she would have to live having lost both of them. She wonders if it's selfish now, like the choice she had made that time. Would it also end with him leaving her behind just like Nagamasa had?
She clenches her hands in her lap, and is looking down when she catches sight of one of the white flowers.
The heavy blossom nods, just once as if the wind had passed over the flower field and she knows the choice she will make. Just like she had known when she had decided to stay last time. And she wouldn't regret it, no matter what. If it was just something like that, she was sure even the weak, selfish her could manage it.
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That was the problem, really, wasn't it? If she remembered...she's sure she could never be 'Ichi' again. He would keep his distance, mindful of the fact that he wasn't Nagamasa. And with the knowledge that Nagamasa was dead...she would have to live having lost both of them. She wonders if it's selfish now, like the choice she had made that time. Would it also end with him leaving her behind just like Nagamasa had?
She clenches her hands in her lap, and is looking down when she catches sight of one of the white flowers.
The heavy blossom nods, just once as if the wind had passed over the flower field and she knows the choice she will make. Just like she had known when she had decided to stay last time. And she wouldn't regret it, no matter what. If it was just something like that, she was sure even the weak, selfish her could manage it.
"I...don't want to."